You're everything to me!<3

As of today,at about,eh...8:30,Sean and I have been together one whole month! -claps- I know,it shocked me too that I finally lasted in a relationship a month this year. I wanna aim for two now! :D Cuz then I'd piss my pants from happiness. I get to see him tomorrow night so we can be together and celebrate the month,which should be amazing...well it better be or I'll be pissed >.< Oh well,let's go fuck! :]

-Zeli<33(Sean)

Under the sea!

One month with Sean tomorrow! It's so amazing,yes it is! And I'm extremely happy about it too,cuz he's amazing and now I have the hiccups...damn. I don't care,I'm happy.This is going to be short because I don't feel like typing much,I have a lazy complex today,xD.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

Oh God, God, she's really done it now.

Today was pretty average. I cleaned the dude's house,went to town and got a new straightener. then came home and just sat around. We just cooked a hash brown casserole and I hope it's good,well it better be or I'll be pissed off. I am really hungry though...I haven't eaten since we ate at Arby's today. I can't wait to go to work tomorrow,I'll have cash to spend on going to shows.xD

-Zeli<33(Sean)

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me...

Tonight was the best night ever in the history of forever! I saw the best band to surface out of redneck land and I got to drink two straight energy drinks. I am in love with Monsters now. I want one as we speak,they taste amazing! I also saw Sean and it upsets me greatly because he takes everything so seriously and freaks over the smallest things. It's annoying. :/ But it's whatever I guess.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

WHAT THE FUCK!!

This is a ranting blog, I guess...

Well,I come to realized I really hate when people say,"Oh,you two are suck a cute couple." Uhm,couldn't you something other than that? Like,say you two look happy together? I'd rather know I look happy with Sean than I look cute with him. It seems a lot better,in my opinion. But hey,it's whatever I guess.lol.I can't really make you change your opinion,but it's what I'd prefer...so say that next time,mmmkay?

-Zeli<33(Sean)

Some say love is not for sinners.

Tonight was amazing, per usual when I'm with Sean. I can't wait until our one month, I seriously can't. It'll be my first relationship to last over a month this school year. It makes me feel all happy and exctied inside lol. Well I don't really have much to say tonight. I guess I'm just tired. Well, I'll leave it at that.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

What's the deal with this pop life?

Today was alright. I missed Sean, here and there. I have these unnatural and weird feelings going on in me. I don't even know what's going on. I'd explain further, but I don't know who all reads my blog. I just know I'm confused and I don't like it. I need some therapy. I really miss dad right now, I'm so used to him being here to bug me all night, but being home alone ends up making me crazy, almost literally. I can't really do much except cook and do stuff like this all night and it gets annoying. Bleh, I dunno, I'm just gonna stop now.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

I mean damn, what's not to adore?

Today was pretty rad, shockingly lol. I cooked muffins, which I hated. They tasted okay, but my group was just a huge group of BITCHES. Talking about how uncomfortable condoms were? I mean seriously...idiots...oh well. I love NeverShoutNever, they are amazing! I like this song called Trouble, it's how my friend Zach feels about Miss Shelby, 100% true, except the not having her part, since he has her. Lol. Oh well.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

Shate it shake it like that girl.

Today is the infamous slow Sunday. I'm home with dad all day and we've done nothing so far. I can't wait till tomorrow. I get to cook blueberry muffins, I'd prefer biscuits but the three dumb whores in my group have to be so god damn picky. A biscuit is something we'd all eat and not bitch about, but they just had to make muffins. I fucking hate them all, especially Stephanie...her and her god damned loud mouth. Fucking whore, she needs to stop lying and get the fuck over herself.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

I don't like China,but China likes me!

Today I went and saw Sean at the movies with Adam and his friend Hunter again. It was pretty much amazing. I had so much fun with Sean, you don't even know. I had my hair all nice and upity, my friend's skirt and I looked decent. We watched Dragonball Evolution...well Adam and Hunter did, Sean and I were uh, distracted. ;) Until Adam opened his mouth. Stupid dough head.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

I try to be delicate and crash right into it.

Nobody's perfect, you live and you learn it! Hannah Montana is one of my new music fetishes. So if you say I'm going with trends, I will sincerely fuck you up. You're just full of yourself you stupid bitch. ^_^ I also would like to say, EVERYONE NEEDS TO JUST GET THE FUCK OVER THEMSELVES AND STOP BEING WHINY LITTLE EMO FUCKS. Mmmkay.

-Zeli<33

And tonight will be the night that I will fall for you...

Ahh!♥♥♥!!! Tonight was the most amazing night of my entire life!!! Hanging with Sean was so amazing...all night we'd just...oh my god I can't even describe how amazing it was. I just know I love him so much and tonight was the best ever. I swear I'm in love with him, if I am then this is the most amazing feeling ever and it is by far the best i have felt in a long...long time.

-Zeli<33(Sean)

Into a place where thoughts can bloom...

Lalala, I don't know. Today is a rambling post I do suppose. I'm just going to say whatever pops into my head. I gave Timmy a piece of pie, the fork he ate it with was used to scratch Michael's balls and ass, he still ate with it knowing that's what it'd been used for...freak. Oh well. I got on and Sean was on, messaged him and he got off. My thoughts were...DICK. Made me so mad...again...oh well. I get to see him tomorrow night so I'm just fine with that xD I get's to hug him, and kiss him, and just be around him. That makes everything better, much much better. For me anyway.

-Zeli<33

Scream, till you feel it!

Bonding with Timmy, seeing Shelby look like a zombie, eating breakfast for lunch?! WHAT THE HELL IS UP?! Yeah, my day is fucking weird. I miss Sean, my blackberry is boring and I want some damn fudge, not really...but I want something tastey. Hopefully tomorrow has better food and better moods. My make up is shitty, my hair is wet and I miss my fucking zune and its in the next room.

GOD I NEED HELP!

-Zeli<33

Cuz it's nine in the afternoon!

So today I went to eat in London, Shiloh's. n.n I had crab legs, salad and some nice rolls. I want to make honey butter now, thanks a fucking lot Shiloh! Well Sean called, and we're good now. Atleast he cares to call and clear things up unlike other guys. I really an getting tired of idiots lying to me and trying to break me and him up...it's getting annoying...but oh well. Wednesday I shall see my babe again! :D I fucking love him so much, I swear. Well for today I will do nothing, as usual. I really need to do this science homework, but I don't know what to do...so I'll wing it. Ah well, toodles. ^_^

-Zeli<33

See the colors of the rainbow.

Today was fairly gay and fairly awesome. I did go see the Hannah Montana movie, but not with Sean like I'd hoped. Next time we talk he's getting an earful, stupid dough head. Oh well. I still had fun with Adam there lol. He wind milled so much and so did Lucas and Michael. After the movie went off Pam and I dirty danced to the credit music. We started a mosh pit and all kinds of crazy stuff. Over all it was pretty rad. I would have enjoyed it times more if Sean had been there. :/

-Zeli<33>

I don't want to be the girl who laughs the loudest.

I got to talk to Sean today!! Made my day amazing lol. I haven't talked to him on the computer or phone since Saturday, but I got to see him last night, but it still made me super giddy and happy. I swear I love that boy more than anything xD Oh well, on with my day. It started out where I was really bitchy, got happy and then I was decent to Timmy. But oh my god, fucking...girl I will not name...well girls, have been bugging the living shit out of me. Talking all the time, hitting me and acting like it'll kill them if I don't listen to them for five seconds. it is getting on my nerves. But anyway, I got home, logged in, around 7 or 8, Sean logged in and I was doped up I swear. I kept laughing and acting stupid. Everytime he says I love you or I miss you, I swear my heart beats faster and my eyes sparkle or some shit. But hey, young love is the best, right?

-Zeli<33

Don't let it fool you about what's inside.

Today was by far interesting, Michael is intent on sticking a bottle in my butt and apparently Timmy is going to help, like hell he is. Hopefully I do get to go to church because I really really really really want to see Sean tonight. It's been like 4 or 5 days and I can't stand it! it absolutely sucks balls. I mean when I dated Aaron I never saw him and I do mean never and we dated for like 3 weeks. Pretty gay huh? I know. I won't let this be like that, I will see him atleast once, maybe twice a week. Hopefully more.

-Zeli<33

No one knows how I feel.

Today was just a severely blah day. I flicked Michael so now I'm waiting for him to shove that two liter pop bottle up my ass sideways, which is going to happen at church of all places. And he thinks he's going to actually do it...-_- Good luck buddy. I have a new morning routine, I walk Sam to his locker and we walk to the library together...yeah, I'm asking to get struck by lightening. In all honesty, I'm not cheating on Sean, cuz Sam and I don't do anything that would mean more than friends...but it sure as hell feels like it. Ah, oh well. This will all blow over soon I do hope. I would like my life to range in the normal section for a couple of months from now on.

-Zeli<33

I can't stay on your morphine cuz it's making me itch.

Ahem, 'scuse me, can I say one thing, real quick here? *coughs to clear throat properly* Will you nosy little cunt fucks please shut the hell up and stay the hell out of my business! Thanks, I feel better now. And to explain that, let me go into a short, yet detailed explaination. Today I had someone bug me about Sean cheating on me, for the third possible time this last week or two, to verify how I feel, I don't believe them. I am doing this whole benefit of the doubt thing, hoping it works for me. If not, then it's Sean's loss not mine. Everyone who has been with me knows I am too much to lose, so if they lost me, they must suck royally. If I give you a second chance, which I gave Sean, then you must have some meaning to me. So be grateful, cuz I must really like you. :) I more than like Sean, I love him...I really do and this shit is driving me crazy, so please stop. Let me deal with my problems instead of having you guys do it for me. Much thanks.

-Zeli<33

Send Me On My Way

Don't you just hate that undoubtly horrible feeling you have while you wait for the person you absolutely adore the most to get their ass online? I know I do. I can't stand waiting for Sean to log in just once a damn day. I miss him all the time, I can't wait to see him when i know we're supposed to hang out at some point or sometime. i hate it more when we can hang out and his fag friends make him ignore me, like fucking Timmy. I know what church will be like Wenesday and I can already tell you Timmy will fucking fail. I always win when it comes to Sean. ^_^

-Zeli<33

Love was easy!

I went to the movies with my friend Adam, his friend Jordan and Sean. :D Best day ever!! Sean amazed me, he was doing exactly what my perfect guy would do. Hold me, make me laugh, and kiss me right when I wanted to be. So I think I'm going to keep him around for as long as ever lovingly possible. Sam is being a dick about me saying I love Sean, but he has no room to talk. He loved me after about 2 days, so he's a dumbass. Oh well. Life is amazing, so is Sean! :D

-Zeli<33

Just Like A Pill

Today is going to be another lazy day. I'm making my Saturday night plans, which will involve Sean and a movie. Sounds better than dinner and a movie if you ask me lol. I hope he doesn't try to make me go see that stupid Connecticut haunting piece of shit movie. I'd stab myself before I even considered going to see it. I will gladly see anything but THAT. I hate with a bloody passion any and all horror movies. I want to shockingly...go see the Hannah Montana movie, just to see how cliche it is. I mean come on, famous pop star chooses fame over a pig farm, with what else of couse, ROMANCE. Piece of shit and typical for a Hannah Montana project. I'd rather hang with her dad for 12 hours playing with pigs in the pig hole.

-Zeli<33

Suga suga how you get so fly?

So today was my lazy day. Monday should have been, but I was out and about way too much for that to be lazy. So today I mainly lounged around and did nothing. So far I've watched Happily Never After, amazing movie by the way :D, and I'm watching Super Size Me, which I am loving so far as well. Tomorrow should be another lazy day, just a tad bit more active. Then Saturday I'll go clean that guys house, get my money and hopefully go to the movies then. If not I'll go to the dollar store and get ten dollars to put on my phone, who knows which I'll do. Right now I'm feeling extra giggly and happy, no clue why. I can't wait to see Sean, just got that happy go lucky love struck girl feeling going on right now. Who knows how long that's going to last. Ahh, well I think I'm done for now. Toodles!

-Zeli<33

I got some popcicles in the freezer...mmmmmmmm...

Today I was hoping to go to the mall with Adam, Sean and Stephanie, but it didn't work out too well. I really miss Sean, like...more than anything. =/ It feels weird to say this, since I usually make fun of people who say this, but I feel so much better about Sean than I did anyone I ever dated. I feel sure of him, like I can actually count on him. He's treating me better, he actually cares about me and he's not rushing me or anything. It's like we're in our own little world going at our own pace and I absolutely love it. I can't wait to see him again, hopefully Saturday. =]

- Zeli<33